I suck so hard

You should play with people at your level, especially in the beginning. You just can't keep up with their skill level and it's really hard to learn the sport that way. You don't have time in that kind of match to get the feel for the ball, the racket, the positioning. And since your shots are beginner level, even if they go over the net, they have easy balls and can probably put you in the thoughest of positions, which even people at their skill level would have a hard time playing against.

I've been playing for 6 years and I keep thinking the same thing as you... just have fun

It takes a looooooot of time to catch up with players who have been playing for over 5 years. Take your own time to improve little by little.  I'd recommend starting with the basic forehand and backhand from the back. Look for videos on the internet teaching these 2 shots. For me, this was THE key to improve my other shots too. Think in terms of position, preparation, (short) swing, recovery, position again. Once you get the hang of it, which I think it will take at least 4-5 sessions, look to improve your volleys at the net. After that, I'd say you're ready for a few lessons on the basic strategy of the game. That should tie your defense (fore and backhand) with your volleys at the net. Defense, transition to the net, apply pressure, then hopefully finish the point with a smash.

Do exercises for hand eye coordination, juggling, vall throwing an catching a ball against a wall or into a corner. Volley to volley exercises. Most girls and some boys need one year to adapt to ball sports. Boys throw stones and balls a lot as children, and play a lot of ball sports. Girls have a very long reacrion time, sometimes. Its like how men have man eyes. There is no magic shortcut. Everybody will learn a lot in the first two years. Cant talk about the coming years, because i am just starting the third year. Your chances to return a ball get better with more experience , they are used to a faster and more agressive play style. Tall or fast guys have a bonus. Squash, Badminton, Tennis, Soccer, Handball players have a Bonus. They can read body positions and forecast the next shot better. Easy to begin , hard to master. You Level up and start to be a beginner again when meeting some stronger opponents. Not padel disabled, but everbody has his oen journey. Play at you level, maybe it takes longer to level up. Your friends can place their shots better and know already how to play balls that are hard to return. With a porper padel addiction you play 100+ times a year, thats just two times a week, thats just a mild addiction. Others need 3,4,5 matches a week.

Don’t be so harsh on yourself. Hand eye coordination is the biggest determinant at the very beginner level, but that doesn’t make you a lesser person. 20 times feel like a lot, but once you’ve played 100 times you’ll feel like 20 was nothing. Just keep practicing, don’t try and hit winners or amazing shots, just try to return every ball safely. Hit some balls against a wall at home (no bounces) and try and keep it going as long as possible. This will help your hand eye. I personally wouldn’t worry about coaching until you’re confident with your ability to hit it reliably, at which point technique and tactics become relevant.

Check some YouTube videos about how to improve on yourself. You can, for example, get into the proper forehand groundstroke position and first move how your body should move, without a ball. In slowmotion. In front of a mirror. Pay attention to good technique. Then get faster. Then add a ball and play it towards the wall, as controlled as possible. Do the same for other shots. Just carefully, pay attention to the technique (find good videos about it) and get repitition in. After these basics, get some coaching!

Yeah... Coachings and train...

Just 20 times in 55555 years??? (Speaking like a friend) Oh shut up and take some classes, and play weekly dude. You'll really notice a leap in just a couple months.

20 times is still very much a beginner. I’ve been playing multiple times a week for about 4 months with no racquet sport background and am probably just now getting solidly low intermediate. Best advice is coaching/group drills, and low stakes match play where you can put those things into practice without worrying. Our local club does rotating partner Mexicanos 3x a week and that’s been invaluable for implementing what I learn

If you have no feeling for how to manage flying objects, it is as it is.

Find someone who is a beginner like you, rent a court and simply train on passing the ball to the other side and keeping it in play

Coaching is the best way to improve the game in a speedy manner. Else u gonna play and probably along the way develop ur own style. And likely lotsa bad habits that may become ingrained. Best to start early, take the shortcut, practice, and play the right way.

There are levels to this sport, you cannot compare yourself to someone that has 5 yrs exp. Play at your level and in 1.5 years of games and lessons you can probably have a match with your friend without feeling so much out of the water

So... did you take a lesson? Maybe you should.

Get a coach for a few sessions - will make a huge difference

1. Play with beginners and with different people on a consistent basis 2. Have an intro to Padel / beginner sessions to learn the basics 3. Beginners learning curve in Padel is fast, but not if you compare against someone who has been playing for 5 years

I’m a little bit on the same situation but I’ve played a little more.. I feel like staying focused on being in the correct position in the court has helped me a lot in the past few games. There are a lot of YouTube videos explaining the positioning.